nice weather

well, it is 12:22 AM EST here at my bat cave, and with it being about 60° f out side i decided to eat my dinner/midnight snack out here on the back deck, so far i have been out here about 45 minutes and it is really nice, i am even thinking about sleeping out here because it is so nice, i played a bit of WoW for the first part of being out here and now i am blogging by candle light, how peaceful. i would like to wish all my readers a nice thanksgiving with your families and friends. i plan on eating thanksgiving dinner at my grandparents on my moms side of the family (dads side of the family are jerks for the most part, so i will not be eating there) unfortunantly i have to work friday, but friday night is the lan party at sasha's so i will be going to that with my kick ass gaming machine (you can read about it a few posts ago) and then i have to worry about paying insurence and then buying everyone a christmas gift, which means i will have no money till after christmas, when i hope to get a ipod touch! setting out here makes me wish i had a tent and a few other midieval camping stuffs so that i could build a nice little fire and camp out middle-age style here on the farm.

well, i cant really make a blog post without updating you on my mental status. i think my brain is starting to loose its edge, i can feel it, i am not as sharp as i used to be, i am forgetting things that i should not be and i am having short term memory loss, the problem is i can feel this degresstion and it hurts knowing that i may be slipping to insanity.

now that you have the update on my conscience, let me update you on my sub-conscience, more specificly, dreams that i have been having of late. for the past 10 days i have been haunted by dreams of Katherine (my ex-girlfriend) and myself being together again. we have been broken up for 18 months now after having dated for 3 years. and i have not had a dream about her for at least a year now, and all of a sudden, i am being haunted by dreams of us as a couple, which has made me quite sad as of late, and i am at a cross-roads of what i should do, i could call her and tell her how i feel and risk rejection, or i could go on with my life and never say anything, the only problem is that i have never felt as happy as i did when i was with her, and i love her so much that i would give up everything for her, i would give up any and all fetishes i may have, i would change anything about myself to make her happy, i would even die for her, and i dont think that i would do all of that for any other person on the planet, there is just something about her that completes me, it is like a lock and a key, that is how happy she makes me, just being with her, or talking to her, it just brings out happiness that nothing else can. i dont know how to put it other than that.

well, it is now 12:46 AM EST and my lappy needs to be plugged in so i am going to leave off here

trauma 2007

so, i went to trauma wednesday october the 31st

it was so great! i really enjoyed it a lot!
they had a dungeon setup and i really, really,
enjoyed watching people get tied up, whipped,
flogged, canned, all of that good stuff, it
was so much fun, as soon as the galleries are
online i will link to them, but i just want
you all to know that it was so much fun!
and you missed out on so much!