i dont know if i want to do what i thought i wanted to do

in the course of taking classes at devry, there are several classes i am forced to take that have little to do with what i think is my major, which has me thinking that network admins are the catch all of the it world, and we end up doing simple programming tasks, and assisting every other technical department when all is calm in ours. so i am starting to wonder if i really want to be a network admin who has to deal with being everyones monkey just because i know how to do my job and there is not always a fire in my department. its almost as if network admins who do there job well are punished by being forced to slave away for other it departments. so i am starting to think that it would be nice to do something else, like teach, i would be a college professor if i were to teach, and it would be something to do with networking. or i could be a lazy bum, or any number of other career choices that dont involve punishment for a job well done...

itunes lyrics

i just got a small app that searches the web for lyrics and artwork for the currently playing song in itunes and then updates the song info with what it finds. it does a really nice job, but the problem now is that i am forced to correct song information in order for it to find the lyrics and album artwork. so i have spent the past two days looking on wikipedia to find out what album a song was on, or what the proper name of a song is to that this app will be able to find the lyrics and artwork.

and i have learned something, when i listen to a song, most of the time i listen to the music, and the sound of the words, but not the words themselves. so when this app finds the lyrics and i start to read through them, i am often shocked at what is actually being said in the song, where i thought a song had a certain meaning, by reading the lyrics the whole meaning of the song changes and i continue to find myself going "wow, i did not know thats what they were talking about"

its amazing what you think of just before you lose consciousness

have you ever felt like you were born at the wrong time? or in the wrong place?

i have a theory, and most of you will tell me that i have lost it, but you cant prove me wrong.

i think that when you die, your consciousness goes to whatever the afterlife may be, if its heaven and hell, or if its nothing, whatever, but i dont think that your consciousness is destroyed. i think that it goes into a queue, where it waits for a new body. and not like "i hope you come back as a lobster" but only taking human form again, not as animals. now, stuff like memories and stuff that is learned is not carried over, however, feelings and emotions are, and that is why some people feel like they should be born in certain places and times, they have a deep longing and feeling to go back to where they were before, where there consciousness was, to there previous life.

for me, i have a deep longing to be a viking, to explore the edge of the earth, to trade with everyone in the known world and still have the audacity to go where no one has before, to sail to new lands, to brave harsh weather and fill in the edges of the map. you see, i listen to music from leaves' eyes and something deep inside me burns like a fire, as if it is stoking a fire deep inside me, a longing to explore the harsh north, a need to explore, a need to sail the ocean. i really feel that in a past life i was a viking, i long to sail the sea, to fight the storm, to share such a great passion with others, all of us, rowing onward into the unknown.